OK. So today I had a visit from a friend of mine. A very nice one too, I would rather have the police at my door or something.

I'll try to be short since I am not in the 9th heaven talking about it. In an argue I had with him, I decided to post my dialogue with him here and ask you what your oppinion is. He also insisted with it but I want to know too. Or, tell you what he told me, whatever. I will make the effort to talk about this once again.

Ahem! So... the subject actually started about the grave 8 exam in school. To be simple, I do not want to give this exam. Simple like that. And for those who don't know I left school in grave 9 *without giving the grave 8 exam thow). And if my friend is right and I'll post more next, prepare the "flames".

The background story of this idiocricy is that, because I was being bullied in the past in school, I decided to leave school. Since then, they all keep bugging me about they're stupid exams and the "papers" I will need to have for getting jobs in the future. I tried telling them that I AM NOT concerned and interested about what papers I need in their stupid sistem witch I am actually against. There are allmost 2 years they keep bugging me about it (and yes, 2 years since I dont go to school so hate me!). The problem is that because of it... well it has reached an too high level. And a point witch is actually scareing me.

They are actually begging me and pleading to give this exam. A thing witch I cannot understand. It is beyond me, I am NOT KILLING MYSELF just missing an god damn exam witch will only aid me in the front of some idiots with jobs in and idios system. I DONT CARE! And I have that right! I would understand, if I said I would burn a house, or kill myself, but IT IS AN PIECE OF PAPER! Rather I have it or not I will be alive, be myself, my REAL friends will still be proud of me because I am good! My life is not written in a paper!

Anywayz, the firend I have talked to has crossed the line. Went against all my beliefs and treated me like a psychopat but not directly, indirectly (and didn't confess it). He has told me he does not want any friends who are not smarted by school, that they do not represent anything, that they are parasites of this world, many things. I was actually giving him arguments in the face and he was saying he does not understand. Yes, and my argument for not giving the school exam is that I will not do anything because I am afraid of what will happen if i dont. i do wnat i consider i must. If I consider I musn't then I won't. I will not give some freakin' papers for an corrupt system just because the majority does so or that I'm afraid of what will happen. NO! And when I told him I'm determined not to, he said I'm just being childish. He only knew to laugh at me all the time.

Good. It's how he sees it. I did not try to change his perception. Just make him understand me and say "I consider its not good, but I understand you". Just that dammit! But no! He capt saying that I'm just childish, attacked me all the time (working in a team with my father but lol I dont even give the smallest damn about that) and what's mpost patethic is that they all say that they want to help me. OK, maybe they do, but... sorry to say this its not normal! He was forcing his beliefs on me like an communist! What the hell has became of this world? My friends are pleading and attacking me at the same time for some stupid papers and at the end claim they do it to help me? This has to be a bad joke or something, ya know?!

Anywayz, I a more than sick of it. I told him to end the conversation bu the didn't want to (in the end he said it was my fault i continued it while I was asking him to stop but he was alwais asking me something again and I had to answer). Punks, both him any my father! But anywayz I'm not here only for this. This "friend" of ine has claimed that if I say this, everyone will agree with him and I am the only one who thinks this way. Like I'm some kind of idiot who doesn't know what he's saying but anywayz its not what he thinks of me that i care, its his way of thinking I am against. Hellz he can call me however he wants I'm too busy to listen. But he (both he and my dad) alwais claimed that, all the people I know from the internet dont give a damn about me because i didn't meet them in the face. Bah I wouldn't be surprised to hear that. If I'd dye right now of course a few people would be sorry but nobody would give too many dams. I would be happy knowing someone really cares for me but... well both him and my dad and all their friends claim that is i know something from the net, certanly it is wrong and fake.

OK. So, I'm ending this now, sorry for the lenghty post. I just want you to tell me if you agree with me. If you agree that people who are against the system like me and refuse to have school exams are idiots, if you believe that one's life can be compared to an exam ONLY because of a certain group of a certain size believes it does, and if you believe in "life written on paper". I expect very annoying answers encouraging the system but I am used to not feel bad about them, and... well if my friend was right and everything he said was right... I am afraid to read what will be answered here but I have to. Be honest and tell me what you really really think, that is really important. Oh, and sorry if I couldn't be more clear and explecit than this, I am very tired right now... sick of this subject... so well... I'll be seeing what everyone said tomorrow. I hope there is someone in this world who agrees with me. If not... I will survive!

To be honest... I am also saying we are both right but didn't vote. Why? Because I am not against him for how he lives and what de does like I said. I even encouraged him to give him his exames if HE WANTS. I only asked him to stop wanting to make me give my exams its what he wants but not me. He claimed he didn't even try to make me give it, while it was only that he tried on me for I think 3 hours in the end i had to leave the "conference".

So I agree with him, have NOTHING against him because he has a happy life in the system i'm against, just because he's trying to force his beliefs on me. And well, also for his vision I cannot change it but I find it... wi will even call it blasphemy (real one not making an Jesus character for UT2004) to compare the value of life with a thing givven in a facility...