Anybody ever feel like nobody likes you like your alone... I have no friends and noone likes me I hate myself and I wanna kill myself but every time I think like that I see my god daughter and I can't do it.
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Yes. I know how it's like. I felt it too. It happens because there are people like you who are too good, and many of the rest are imbecils who deserve to be blasted with stones in the middle of the street (and without trying to insult anyone, some of them have posted in this topic (including what's in "refuse") and their absence of any kind of sence is revolting but I'm used to people like this).
For me, it happened in grave 7 when I moved to another school. I had the bad luck to fall in a classroom full of idiots that... I could only describe as... people controlled by demons (yes, it actually matches some). That's when I started realising that I don't want to live in this world. Not in a world ran by humans on the laws and rules they seem to have made (this is because of my therianthropy, yes). I had a moment when I thought I was eventually going to kill myself and this was going to be the way I was going to die. But I was afraid I could go to hell. I thought I was going to soon and spent time thinking how to do it. Well, now I got over it. I calmed down when I found out that I'm not human.
So, what I should tell you is that you must stop thinking about killing yourself. I understood it makes no sence when I realised that, if I believe in something, I must get there after I die. So if I am going to be between those with who I wanted to be with in the end, then why kill myself and not live happy thinking of it (and no, not live like "ah, now I'm 20! In like 50 years I'm finally going to die and get where I want). Just alwais know it will be OK. It would be too sad for those who are good to die and let all the scums rule the world.
Well, I hope this helps you. If you're feeling bad or need to talk with someone, you can PM or Yahoo! IM me. I'd like to talk to you since I also need to talk to someone. Anyways, try to spend most of your time thinking good and to stay away from some kinds of people who make nothing but to throw negative energy at you. Good luck!