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The Lounge => Ranting => Topic started by: Risu on Aug 08 2013, 12:08 AM
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I miss being able to enjoy drawing like I used to.
Ever since last July, I've been extremely depressed. At that time, I was starting to become jealous and resentful of Virmir's (http://art.by.virmir.com) arts, and subsequently discouraged and unhappy with my own. I would always negatively obsess over it, and I ended up causing alot of stupid drama in the Chatroom (http://crimsonflagcomic.com/forum) over at his forum community. So when I finally got Banned from that place, that's what finally triggered what I call "The Event", or the "First Event". And for the next 10 months, I had to relearn everything I knew about social skills & behavioural correctness. I was pretty much in 4th Grade all over again, in terms of developmental inadequacy. I'm a 21 year-old man, for F$&%#!'s sake. Not only that, but I had to redetermine what my intrests are and what I like to draw. Well, the wounds never quite healed right, I guess. Even now, whenever I sit down to try and draw anything, I simply keep having another depression attack. I can't draw to feel better; it only makes it worse.
So yeah, that's all what I've been doing..... :(