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Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 07 2006, 03:45 AM: Well, I'm having many problems and others many things related to kitsune. Let's start with chat logs:

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[10:22] <Elmind> someone here?
[10:35] <Elmind> hey, I need someone to talk
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[10:43] <Elmind> ?
[10:43] <Elmind> another me?!
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[12:37] <???> yo
[12:38] <???> how i managed to get 2 hours of sleep and it feeling longer than 2 hours, is beyond me
[12:47] <Elmind> ^_~
[12:47] <Elmind> how're u?
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[12:48] <???> hungry.
[12:48] <???> getting breakfast.
[12:48] <???> :p
[12:49] <Elmind> well, everything is okay here...
[12:50] <Elmind> Well, almost
[12:50] <Elmind> this night's dream beats me
[12:57] <???> ok..
[12:57] <Elmind> it wasn't weird as it always is...
[12:58] <Elmind> Yet, my memory is tearing the memory of that dream apart...
[12:58] <Elmind> So, I think I must tell now or never.
[12:59] <???> now
[12:59] <Elmind> I clearly remember of few things, like entering in a lake I never saw before...
[13:00] <Elmind> Once I entered, I turned into a light-gray fox-like being standing on its hind leg and I began to wash myself in that lake
[13:01] <Elmind> another part of that dream, I was out of that lake and was into a house, but with my true appearance (and cloths on)
[13:01] <Elmind> then a fat yet strong guy blasted a door with a punch. I tried to fight him for a reason I can't remember... My punches were nothing for him
[13:01] <Elmind> I backed off
[13:02] <Elmind> and went again toward him
[13:02] <Elmind> then my punches were strong enough to make him unable to react
[13:02] <Elmind> this is all I remember...
[13:04] <???> ah
[13:05] <Elmind> Yet, when I turned back into that being... I didn't worried about it
[13:05] <Elmind> it was like being normal...
[13:09] <Elmind> weird, no?
[13:09] <???> somewhat, yeah
[13:10] <Elmind> what you think it was?
[13:13] <???> If I had it, I would think it was strange.
[13:14] <Elmind> Yet, I thought like that...
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 07 2006, 03:55 AM: Thanks to the posting problem, I have to double or triple post...
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Elmind Blacksky diz:
ohyo, nee-chan!
??? diz:
hellos ^.^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I had an interesting dream (finally!), but I'll tell you when I get done taking care of my cats
??? diz:
thats great ^^ so you actually had a dream after all these years?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
"thats great ^^ so you actually had a dream after all these years?"
Elmind Blacksky diz:
correction: weeks
??? diz:
you told me you never dreamed since you where young\
Elmind Blacksky diz:
yep, but I told once I rarely dream actualy
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, to the dream: you remember that my dream "tears up" from one into another
??? diz:
no you didnt tell me that
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, this one sorta came covering the other
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I didn't? ^~;; (got owned by lack of memory)
Elmind Blacksky diz:
*I got owned
??? diz:
=^^=
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, in the dream I saw a tree with a thick cord with small ornaments was tied around a tree.
??? diz:
wait, firstly, do you dream in colour?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I can't remember the name of the ornament itself
??? diz:
when you do?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
yup
Elmind Blacksky diz:
colorfuly, but gets restricted into less colors when it is purely based in reality
??? diz:
Yeah. I never dream in black and white like i heard most do
Elmind Blacksky diz:
then I was now even more close to that tree and I saw 9~12 white/gray foxes dancing around it
Elmind Blacksky diz:
looking carefuly, I saw one red fox with two tails.
??? diz:
^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I obviously found that the envrionment was japan
??? diz:
if you really dreamed someyhjing like that youre really lucky
??? diz:
*something
Elmind Blacksky diz:
Because I saw those onarments on pillars on Japan, probably of a shrine
Elmind Blacksky diz:
after that, it threw me into an ilusionary world
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I saw like I woke up and my mother already left home, but I truly woke up 20 or 30 seconds later
??? diz:
I only once remember a few months ago having a dream about being at another one of ym houses and seeing a big cat in white with black stripes staying on two paws and having at least 2 fox tails and he/she looked splendid. its the only dream of that sort i remember having thow
Elmind Blacksky diz:
wow
Elmind Blacksky diz:
the provider had an reboot
??? diz:
yeah i saw
??? diz:
^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, as I said, basically that dream closes to that: an illusion perfectly made of the real world
Elmind Blacksky diz:
now I remember clearly that I had an illusion of the real world right after that dream I turned into a female gray fox
??? diz:
youre really lucky =^^=
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I feel I am! ^^
??? diz:
yes
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I was talking with Samui yesterday and metioned I wan't to dream like that again and then
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I did! ^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, I'll keep a log of this chat
??? diz:
and i would also advise you to post about this in the dreams session on kp
"Diz", translated from portuguese to english, means "says".
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 07 2006, 04:00 AM: Recently I'm having mood swings all the time... I feel the urge to cry without reason, I cried for an hour without reason (or with a reason? I just remember feeling I was all alone...) and crying without noticing... Also, I have no ideas anymore, it is like my mind is empty when it comes to ideas, which is unusual in my case, since I'm called "The man of the ideas" and I always had many ideas... But now... All of'em (ideas) gave place to a story that, oddly enough, I can't write even one line without crying... It isn't sad in the begninning, but the ending is...

EDIT: I forgot to mention: After both of those dreams I posted above here, I had a dream I woke up, did something and then I really wake up... However, they're so real that mix perfectly with the concept of reallity we all have... I keep having nauseas and yesterday, call me stupid or say this is bullshit, but I looked to the moon and had two impressions, one after another:
1st: I heard a hissing. I looked around and surelly there was no snake. (snakes around here are pretty rare)
2nd: I saw like the moon light was melting.... It was very weird...
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Nov 07 2006, 05:11 AM: Well, to be honest, I think the truth is that you have a very strong tie to other places, witch means you can actually remember things from other lives like a dream or something similar thow im also into something like that and i know its really not easy to tell. If its really a story you remember (from nothing like a movie or game) to the point that it really makes you cry, I'm sure it cannot be something made up by your mind. It depends on how you feel about everything in what you remember / dream to try to understand how much of everything applies to you.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 07 2006, 05:18 AM: It is pretty confusing... I'm trying to make my mother pay me a regression therapy...
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Nov 07 2006, 07:09 AM: Quote
It is pretty confusing... I'm trying to make my mother pay me a regression therapy...
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Dont! I wanted the same thing years ago, and if it is what they told me it is (and what i was asking for) it means or includes actually forgetting what you know now. In the end i realised i dont want to forget everything i know, it would be a big loss. You could forget the dreams you had (even thow you do dislkie some) , you could forget what you know about yourself now and what you want to do and it would be really bad. I domt think its worth it
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 07 2006, 02:36 PM: Maybe the story that is in my mind is my past life... I need to know anything that can fit in the puzzle... It is getting worse and worse every day I can't figure something out... The sadness takes over most of the time... The sudden cold wave inside my body is happening more and more... It hurts... Not knowing who I was... Who I am... What I am... It is terrible...
Title: Problems
Post by: shippou on Nov 07 2006, 09:33 PM: Quote
Maybe the story that is in my mind is my past life... I need to know anything that can fit in the puzzle... It is getting worse and worse every day I can't figure something out... The sadness takes over most of the time... The sudden cold wave inside my body is happening more and more... It hurts... Not knowing who I was... Who I am... What I am... It is terrible...
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And it is for that reason that places like this exist. If you can't tackle a problem on your own you can ask people who have been through the same thing to help you out. your not alone unless you make yourself that way, and there are always people who can help.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 08 2006, 03:42 AM: How can I explain... It is like: Everyone is around but I don't feel any presence... That is what I mean with lonely... It is like someone important to me, being my other personality or not, a spirit or not, a kitsune or not, is getting away... And it is causing me to suffer...
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Nov 08 2006, 07:43 AM: I still believe that this world is nothing but a dream. So you should be able to make it the way you want to. Unfortunately, its not really that easy. Just try to become aware of the fact that if you feel sad about it, it doesn't change anything, so its not worth being sad about it.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 09 2006, 03:42 AM: It is not a dream...

Btw, I took courage and told something to my mother yesterday: I had once the feeling of being sliced at the chest. It was like an ice slashing there. It froze me in place for a while... 10 seconds, me thinks... And in the story that doesn't leaves my mind, I'm a samurai in the feudal age of Japan... And I (as a samurai) got sliced at the chest (deadly slashed) in the SAME WAY and EXACT spot... Coincidence? I don't think so...
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 14 2006, 04:46 AM: Well, I need to bump with content:

Yesterday I felt like I was slowly stabbed on the back, in the place the heart is located. As in the story I can't tell, this is the end of the life to the samurai and the gorgeous woman. Due to a promisse, she held the samurai's, now dead, body and with her free hand she took the sword. She kissed him passionately and stabbed at the samurai's back, in that exact place, eventually going through her as well. Then she says something that I have no idea what it was and fell to the side, hugging the samurai as she dies with him.

Yesterday I was meditating and I saw a blue liquid flame floating above my heart. I had to stop the meditation for a while (thanks mom >:C ). And had to do it again. I had problems to focus but, when I did, I saw the blue flame all over me! (No, I have no lava lamp... Brazil sucks, man...)
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 22 2006, 03:33 AM: again: bump with content.

Last night I kept seeing flashs inside my house. One in the computer room, one in my bro's room... The first flash almost knocked me unconcious... Luckly enough, I didn't passed out... It would be some painful fall... Well, within the first flash I think I saw something... Not sure what, where or who it was... But I saw...

PS: No, no one had a camera to take pictures...
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Nov 23 2006, 03:57 AM: I see it is hard to come up with replies... No problem, let me keep it updated like a blog...

Ouch... I never knew I could feel pain within dreams... Like I was using braces... I could feel pression over all my teeth... Man, this is getting weirder as the time passes...
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 04 2006, 06:51 PM: The mood swings are wuite frequent, sometimes followed by the feeling of someone choking me to death... I don't know how long I can stand this, IT IS DRIVING ME INSANE! :'(
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 05 2006, 04:27 AM: Let's remember that not everything here is a dream...

I once had a dream that I sacrified my humanity, to live with a catgirl (lol), by inserting a strange DNA sample within me. Whan it was fully inserted, I woke up with my heart beatting at a painful rate, and taking a long and deep breath that sounded like a roar.

Well, yesterday, before falling asleep, my mother called me when I was about to fall asleep. My heartbeat rate had a huge jump, I think it was beatting two times quicker than usual. And it only stopped with that "jump" when I fell asleep.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 10 2006, 05:37 AM: My mother told me I mumbled something she couldn't understand last night... I wonder what it was, since I had no dream and my mind was focused in the fanfic I'm writing
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 15 2006, 09:16 AM: Well, I had a weird dream last night... I was walking in the upper street and someone threw me a rock. I got it between my index and middle finger in the right hand. Then someone (My neighbor) threw me another rock and I got between the same fingers in my left hand. He then got a huge rock to throw at me (a head in size) I ran away and asked to my mom why they were throwing rocks at me. She probably didn't heard me, since she had her back turned to me and she didn't reacted. My neighbor then threw a small rock that did hit the back of my head and I rubbed the back of my head, saying "He did it again!". She didn't reacted and then he got the huge rock, going toward me. Then I woke up with my mom calling me... I wonder if it was a warning... Maybe I'm going to become something and people will see me as a mutant, a freak, a beast... I don't know what to do... I felt the urge to howl/roar and I still feel like doing so...
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Dec 15 2006, 09:50 AM: Well... just a warning... it is a very good thing to stay and try to understand what a dream means but never be 100% sure something will happen over what you have dreamed. It could not happen or it could mean something else. So if you dream something bad and think it might mean something, do not worry at all, but just be more careful around you to see how true it is (it might even mean seeing something certain in a certain day for example. Not only somethinggood or bad) but it is a good idea that if you did dream about something wrong happening with something in a dream and if in a few days you see that something to try to avoid it. Otherwise, dun worry too much ^ ^
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 25 2006, 10:06 AM: Okay, weirdness reached the max... Remember the samurai thing? Yes, it gets worse with me at the night and with certain musics that somehow remembers me that sadness... Last night I was sleeping with my MP3 Player in loop with a lot of songs, but, whenever the musics below were played, I felt like I couldn't breath, like someone had slit my throat, and I could visualize the sad ending of that story. I found the samurai had long hair, around at his waist, was slim but yet strong and he was wearing a dark kimono (I can't recall the color).

The musics were:
Evanescence - Bring me to life
Evanescence - Going Under
Linkin Park - In the End

In going under's case, it was toward the end of the music.
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Dec 25 2006, 03:51 PM: Quote
Okay, weirdness reached the max... Remember the samurai thing? Yes, it gets worse with me at the night and with certain musics that somehow remembers me that sadness... Last night I was sleeping with my MP3 Player in loop with a lot of songs, but, whenever the musics below were played, I felt like I couldn't breath, like someone had slit my throat, and I could visualize the sad ending of that story. I found the samurai had long hair, around at his waist, was slim but yet strong and he was wearing a dark kimono (I can't recall the color).

The musics were:
Evanescence - Bring me to life
Evanescence - Going Under
Linkin Park - In the End

In going under's case, it was toward the end of the music.
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Having mood shifts based on music is something very normal. I believe everyone is born with a certain "music profile" that determines what song they like and gets to them most. I know these songs and they have an effect on me too as they're very fantasy-like songs. I have to admit that your story with the samurai is a little hard for me to understand thow as long as it happens to you, it is something perfectly normal.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 25 2006, 07:25 PM: Well, I'll put it like this:
*Linkin Park - In the End : It used to make me hyper or just a little sad, depending on how I was in the day I listened to it, but now...

*Evanescence - Bring me to life : I used to sing along with it... It wasn't much of a sadness trigger for me, but now...

*Evanescence - Going Under : I have no words to describe how I LOVE this music, even though it affects me this badly actually...

I still need to discover the look of the gorgeous woman, since my "visions" (I can't call'em visions) are a little black and white, but the samurai got colors already.
Title: Problems
Post by: Voncloud on Dec 26 2006, 01:33 PM: I believe it is time for me to intervine here, I apoligise that i have been absent during what seems to be...an interesting time. I need to reply to you about the Dream about the rocks and your mother. I feel that this dream isnt a warning, but a reality check, to show that your mother isnt going to be able to fight your battles for you all the time. Her lack of reaction was more of a way of trying to get you to turn and face, in this case the people with the rocks.
Your dream about the music isnt something out of the oridinary, music is able to work on peoples minds in differant way's, me for instance, most of my rping ideas are from listning to music. Your's seems to induce differant emotions and feelings within the body, especially when your asleep. The music you listen to i also listen to when im thinking about or even doing Rp's. So whats happening in my opinion is the music is creating the scenes from your samurai dream /story during your dream.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 26 2006, 08:12 PM: I didn't dreamt with the samurai thing... But I was wide awake when I saw the scenes in my mind... Can you get on MSN? I'd like to talk to you there, since I rarelly use mIRC or IRC chat
Title: Problems
Post by: Voncloud on Dec 27 2006, 05:45 AM: I try to be on MSN when your on, but unfortanatly time difference plays a big part. I will try to be on when i can though.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Dec 27 2006, 11:06 AM: tch, this sucks big...
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Jan 04 2007, 11:49 AM: I LOL'D at myself yesterday. Someone sent a me to a video of Sadam's execution but, when I was going to reply him, I felt the urge to say "I don't want to see your kind killing someone, like they did with me and my love!". I didn't told that because I recovered my senses... Heh, just lol...
Title: Problems
Post by: Taoki on Jan 05 2007, 05:01 PM: Not so lol really. Its normal if you can have your subconcious mind run so much at the surface witch is good as long as you dont find yourself saying something normal people will laugh about while it happens (like when outside or with friends).
I dun feel the urge of saying these things out loud thow i do feel and believe them. And, like i said, I believe the execution of Sadam was a pure idiocricy. He should have just been turned into a simple civilian. But it is true that humans alwais want only justice, often revendge and most of what they do are done only through force.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Jan 08 2007, 05:25 PM: Well, this night I had a strange dreams in which I was doing common things (Like playing KoF) or uncommon things (like going into a dangerous adventure), but the most uncommon thing appeared to me in this form:
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At first, I didn't cared much... But then... Yet, it made me think of Renamon (from digimon), but Renamon doesn't walks on all four in her main form, so it couldn't be her... WTFH it was then?!
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on Feb 13 2007, 04:22 AM: It has been a while since I posted here, eh?! Well, no new dreams... Only one, but that has been a several days since I dreamt... But this one doesn't matters.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on May 12 2007, 10:17 AM: News: Remember the "visions" I had? Conclusion: They ACTUALLY happened! How I could know a woman commits Harakiri (Seppuku) by stabbing a knife (or Katana, in this case) or long, thin needle on her heart ( !_! ) or throath? I recently found out and those "visions" happened four or five or six months ago... Currently I keep having sudden mood swings... It is hard to control it, but I'm still trying to.
Title: Problems
Post by: Elmind on May 13 2007, 07:08 AM: Update:

Minor note: the music "Reset" by Ayaka Hirahara tend to drive me calm or sad, but I can't tell when it is going to cause me sadness or calmness... It is such a sweet melody...