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Elmind

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« on: Nov 07 2006, 03:45 AM »
Well, I'm having many problems and others many things related to kitsune. Let's start with chat logs:

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[10:22] *** Topic is .:: [ Kitsune Paradise ] -- http://www.kitsuneparadise.com -- [ We need people actually TALKING in here if this IRC channel is to exist. ] -- [ other channels: #spirituality, #vultopia, #dkradio, #uru ]  ::.
[10:22] *** Channel mode is +tnr
[10:22] <Elmind> someone here?
[10:35] <Elmind> hey, I need someone to talk
[10:43] *** Elmind- has joined #kparadise
[10:43] <Elmind> ?
[10:43] <Elmind> another me?!
[10:44] *** Elmind- has quit (Quit: www.kitsuneparadise.com)
[12:37] <???> yo
[12:38] <???> how i managed to get 2 hours of sleep and it feeling longer than 2 hours, is beyond me
[12:47] <Elmind> ^_~
[12:47] <Elmind> how're u?
[12:48] *** ChanServ changed topic to .:: [ Kitsune Paradise ] -- http://www.kitsuneparadise.com -- [ We need people actually TALKING in here if this IRC channel is to exist. ] -- [ other channels: #spirituality, #vultopia, #dkradio, #uru ]  ::.
[12:48] <???> hungry.
[12:48] <???> getting breakfast.
[12:48] <???> :p
[12:49] <Elmind> well, everything is okay here...
[12:50] <Elmind> Well, almost
[12:50] <Elmind> this night's dream beats me
[12:57] <???> ok..
[12:57] <Elmind> it wasn't weird as it always is...
[12:58] <Elmind> Yet, my memory is tearing the memory of that dream apart...
[12:58] <Elmind> So, I think I must tell now or never.
[12:59] <???> now
[12:59] <Elmind> I clearly remember of few things, like entering in a lake I never saw before...
[13:00] <Elmind> Once I entered, I turned into a light-gray fox-like being standing on its hind leg and I began to wash myself in that lake
[13:01] <Elmind> another part of that dream, I was out of that lake and was into a house, but with my true appearance (and cloths on)
[13:01] <Elmind> then a fat yet strong guy blasted a door with a punch. I tried to fight him for a reason I can't remember... My punches were nothing for him
[13:01] <Elmind> I backed off
[13:02] <Elmind> and went again toward him
[13:02] <Elmind> then my punches were strong enough to make him unable to react
[13:02] <Elmind> this is all I remember...
[13:04] <???> ah
[13:05] <Elmind> Yet, when I turned back into that being... I didn't worried about it
[13:05] <Elmind> it was like being normal...
[13:09] <Elmind> weird, no?
[13:09] <???> somewhat, yeah
[13:10] <Elmind> what you think it was?
[13:13] <???> If I had it, I would think it was strange.
[13:14] <Elmind> Yet, I thought like that...
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Elmind

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« Reply #1 on: Nov 07 2006, 03:55 AM »
Thanks to the posting problem, I have to double or triple post...
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Elmind Blacksky diz:
ohyo, nee-chan!
???  diz:
hellos ^.^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I had an interesting dream (finally!), but I'll tell you when I get done taking care of my cats
???  diz:
thats great ^^ so you actually had a dream after all these years?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
"thats great ^^ so you actually had a dream after all these years?"
Elmind Blacksky diz:
correction: weeks
??? diz:
you told me you never dreamed since you where young\
Elmind Blacksky diz:
yep, but I told once I rarely dream actualy
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, to the dream: you remember that my dream "tears up" from one into another
??? diz:
no you didnt tell me that
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, this one sorta came covering the other
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I didn't? ^~;; (got owned by lack of memory)
Elmind Blacksky diz:
*I got owned
???  diz:
=^^=
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, in the dream I saw a tree with a thick cord with small ornaments was tied around a tree.
???  diz:
wait, firstly, do you dream in colour?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I can't remember the name of the ornament itself
???  diz:
when you do?
Elmind Blacksky diz:
yup
Elmind Blacksky diz:
colorfuly, but gets restricted into less colors when it is purely based in reality
???  diz:
Yeah. I never dream in black and white like i heard most do
Elmind Blacksky diz:
then I was now even more close to that tree and I saw 9~12 white/gray foxes dancing around it
Elmind Blacksky diz:
looking carefuly, I saw one red fox with two tails.
???  diz:
^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I obviously found that the envrionment was japan
???  diz:
if you really dreamed someyhjing like that youre really lucky
???  diz:
*something
Elmind Blacksky diz:
Because I saw those onarments on pillars on Japan, probably of a shrine
Elmind Blacksky diz:
after that, it threw me into an ilusionary world
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I saw like I woke up and my mother already left home, but I truly woke up 20 or 30 seconds later
???  diz:
I only once remember a few months ago having a dream about being at another one of ym houses and seeing a big cat in white with black stripes staying on two paws and having at least 2 fox tails and he/she looked splendid. its the only dream of that sort i remember having thow
Elmind Blacksky diz:
wow
Elmind Blacksky diz:
the provider had an reboot
???  diz:
yeah i saw
???  diz:
^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, as I said, basically that dream closes to that: an illusion perfectly made of the real world
Elmind Blacksky diz:
now I remember clearly that I had an illusion of the real world right after that dream I turned into a female gray fox
???  diz:
youre really lucky =^^=
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I feel I am! ^^
???  diz:
yes
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I was talking with Samui yesterday and metioned I wan't to dream like that again and then
Elmind Blacksky diz:
I did! ^^
Elmind Blacksky diz:
well, I'll keep a log of this chat
???  diz:
and i would also advise you to post about this in the dreams session on kp
"Diz", translated from portuguese to english, means "says".
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Elmind

Problems
« Reply #2 on: Nov 07 2006, 04:00 AM »
Recently I'm having mood swings all the time... I feel the urge to cry without reason, I cried for an hour without reason (or with a reason? I just remember feeling I was all alone...) and crying without noticing... Also, I have no ideas anymore, it is like my mind is empty when it comes to ideas, which is unusual in my case, since I'm called "The man of the ideas" and I always had many ideas... But now... All of'em (ideas) gave place to a story that, oddly enough, I can't write even one line without crying... It isn't sad in the begninning, but the ending is...

EDIT: I forgot to mention: After both of those dreams I posted above here, I had a dream I woke up, did something and then I really wake up... However, they're so real that mix perfectly with the concept of reallity we all have... I keep having nauseas and yesterday, call me stupid or say this is bullshit, but I looked to the moon and had two impressions, one after another:
1st: I heard a hissing. I looked around and surelly there was no snake. (snakes around here are pretty rare)
2nd: I saw like the moon light was melting.... It was very weird...
« Last Edit: Nov 07 2006, 04:22 AM by Elmind »
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« Reply #3 on: Nov 07 2006, 05:11 AM »
Well, to be honest, I think the truth is that you have a very strong tie to other places, witch means you can actually remember things from other lives like a dream or something similar thow im also into something like that and i know its really not easy to tell. If its really a story you remember (from nothing like a movie or game) to the point that it really makes you cry, I'm sure it cannot be something made up by your mind. It depends on how you feel about everything in what you remember / dream to try to understand how much of everything applies to you.
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Elmind

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« Reply #4 on: Nov 07 2006, 05:18 AM »
It is pretty confusing... I'm trying to make my mother pay me a regression therapy...
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« Reply #5 on: Nov 07 2006, 07:09 AM »
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It is pretty confusing... I'm trying to make my mother pay me a regression therapy...
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Dont! I wanted the same thing years ago, and if it is what they told me it is (and what i was asking for) it means or includes actually forgetting what you know now. In the end i realised i dont want to forget everything i know, it would be a big loss. You could forget the dreams you had (even thow you do dislkie some) , you could forget what you know about yourself now and what you want to do and it would be really bad. I domt think its worth it
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Elmind

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« Reply #6 on: Nov 07 2006, 02:36 PM »
Maybe the story that is in my mind is my past life... I need to know anything that can fit in the puzzle... It is getting worse and worse every day I can't figure something out... The sadness takes over most of the time... The sudden cold wave inside my body is happening more and more... It hurts... Not knowing who I was... Who I am... What I am... It is terrible...
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« Reply #7 on: Nov 07 2006, 09:33 PM »
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Maybe the story that is in my mind is my past life... I need to know anything that can fit in the puzzle... It is getting worse and worse every day I can't figure something out... The sadness takes over most of the time... The sudden cold wave inside my body is happening more and more... It hurts... Not knowing who I was... Who I am... What I am... It is terrible...
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And it is for that reason that places like this exist. If you can't tackle a problem on your own you can ask people who have been through the same thing to help you out. your not alone unless you make yourself that way, and there are always people who can help.
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Elmind

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« Reply #8 on: Nov 08 2006, 03:42 AM »
How can I explain... It is like: Everyone is around but I don't feel any presence... That is what I mean with lonely... It is like someone important to me, being my other personality or not, a spirit or not, a kitsune or not, is getting away... And it is causing me to suffer...
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« Reply #9 on: Nov 08 2006, 07:43 AM »
I still believe that this world is nothing but a dream. So you should be able to make it the way you want to. Unfortunately, its not really that easy. Just try to become aware of the fact that if you feel sad about it, it doesn't change anything, so its not worth being sad about it.
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Elmind

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« Reply #10 on: Nov 09 2006, 03:42 AM »
It is not a dream...

Btw, I took courage and told something to my mother yesterday: I had once the feeling of being sliced at the chest. It was like an ice slashing there. It froze me in place for a while... 10 seconds, me thinks... And in the story that doesn't leaves my mind, I'm a samurai in the feudal age of Japan... And I (as a samurai) got sliced at the chest (deadly slashed) in the SAME WAY and EXACT spot... Coincidence? I don't think so...
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Elmind

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« Reply #11 on: Nov 14 2006, 04:46 AM »
Well, I need to bump with content:

Yesterday I felt like I was slowly stabbed on the back, in the place the heart is located. As in the story I can't tell, this is the end of the life to the samurai and the gorgeous woman. Due to a promisse, she held the samurai's, now dead, body and with her free hand she took the sword. She kissed him passionately and stabbed at the samurai's back, in that exact place, eventually going through her as well. Then she says something that I have no idea what it was and fell to the side, hugging the samurai as she dies with him.

Yesterday I was meditating and I saw a blue liquid flame floating above my heart. I had to stop the meditation for a while (thanks mom >:C ). And had to do it again. I had problems to focus but, when I did, I saw the blue flame all over me! (No, I have no lava lamp... Brazil sucks, man...)
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Elmind

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« Reply #12 on: Nov 22 2006, 03:33 AM »
again: bump with content.

Last night I kept seeing flashs inside my house. One in the computer room,  one in my bro's room... The first flash almost knocked me unconcious... Luckly enough, I didn't passed out... It would be some painful fall... Well, within the first flash I think I saw something... Not sure what, where or who it was... But I saw...

PS: No, no one had a camera to take pictures...
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Elmind

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« Reply #13 on: Nov 23 2006, 03:57 AM »
I see it is hard to come up with replies... No problem, let me keep it updated like a blog...

Ouch... I never knew I could feel pain within dreams... Like I was using braces... I could feel pression over all my teeth... Man, this is getting weirder as the time passes...
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Elmind

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« Reply #14 on: Dec 04 2006, 06:51 PM »
The mood swings are wuite frequent, sometimes followed by the feeling of someone choking me to death... I don't know how long I can stand this, IT IS DRIVING ME INSANE! :'(
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